tomorrow...

Joseph will be 11 months.  The next day He and I fly out together to visit my mom and try and be of some help or cheer while she is going through her radiation treatments.  just after we get back marks a one year anniversary of our pure chaos summer from last year beginning with the tornado and almost delivering a baby that same day, worrying over friends and how to help them,  to whirlwind interviews and campus visits with a job offer and house hunt, renter-finding and moving with a newborn...

We still haven't fully settled in here at the house we are renting... partially due to the fact that the lease ends in less than 90 days, and mostly due that it has a few issues that i just haven't been able to come to terms with.  either way, chaos still abounds here, and i just can't seem to get a handle on it.  We're still in job hunt mode and moving mode, this time with a 1 year old... which is MOST DEFINITELY harder than with a newborn.  We're back into renter finder mode or house selling mode, and once again trying to deal with emotions of coming to terms with leaving a wonderful area that has become home to us with friends that have become family.  I keep thinking back to the part in the steve martin movie Parenthood where the grandma talks about roller coasters vs merry go rounds... i feel like we are on a never ending roller coaster, and just for a brief moment would really like a merry go round ride...Oh well... I'm just grateful that despite everything we still have a tomorrow.