just a little hello...

the big hello will come once we actually get INto our new home (nope, still not in yet, but we're enjoying our family vacation at the lake!) (just feeling anxious and wanting to get settled but not appear ungrateful...) 


so in the mean time... until we get internet... enjoy some holleys on the lake!

Where I am proven once again...

Through out this entire process of job-hunting, home hunting, and tenant hunting, I've tried to maintain the attitude of faith... I know my Heavenly Father has always taken care of our family, and I know that we've always had to prove our faith, but sometimes I wonder if he just likes to watch me squrim.

We pack our moving truck in 6 days and pull out in 7... and we still had no one to rent our home... or a home to go to really.  The tenants in the NC were supposed to be out a few weeks ago, then a week later, and then a week later... they assured the landlord that they have a place and would be out, but then they refused to leave until the 8th, which is when their new place would be ready.  but they haven't paid rent in months, and L.L. has been extreemly patient with them, but they just simply refused to leave until they had somewhere else to go.  unfortunately that left us with no-where to go either... but L.L. called me with a plan... a fantastic plan.  He apologized over and over and asked if we would be ok if he put us up in his other property that is their family's personal lakefront home... hmmm, i really didn't have to think hard about that one :)  but it took a bit for brad to take to it... it's not like we really have much of an option.

So that is settled. (for now...sorta, well enough for me anyways...)

And then today we had a family over that is moving here from utah for school, for the next 4 years! and they didn't have much luck finding anything else in town to rent and they want to rent our house!!!! :)

so, in the words of bob marley..."Don't worry, about a thing, cause every little thing, is gonna be alright..."

I hope I have shown the faith and passed this test (maybe not "aced" it... but passed ;) thanks everyone who has had to listen to me moan and groan about all this... and for everyone's prayers!

blah!

how is today going you might ask?

blah!.... blah blah blah blah blah.

but that's ok. we have some fun plans in the works for tomorrow, saturday, and a few more for next week.

I'm trying to figure out how to say goodbye...

(i hate goodbyes...)

reality is starting to set in. there are only 7 more weekdays and 2 more weekends here...

how do i say goodbye to a home that is the only home our kids have known?  a place where we brought home 2 babies! and potty trained 3! a home where 2 of our children learned to walk, 3 learned to open doors and climb on top of counters and even the refrigerator!  a home that has provided us shelter and protection from elements of all kinds physical and spiritual.

how do i say goodbye to friends who have become family, only to leave to a place where i know no-one? friends who have listened to the promptings of the spirit and called or paid a visit precisely when it was needed, or who have given help without being asked?  who have provided great advice, love and devotion to our family?

how do i help our children to say goodbye?  I've been sharing stories and experiences of the times i moved growing up and i think that has helped them... we've been trying to make sure they get a chance to spend last moments with special friends... and getting them excited about a new adventure as a family! they seem happy about that...

so many emotions moving through me that i feel dizzy all the time just trying to figure out what to do next!  I still haven't started the medicine, but on days that i think, yeah, i should start that tomorrow, and then i wake up and  "tomorrow" is great! so then i feel like i can wait another day... i can't decide how much of my "BLAH!" is due to everything else... when i was at a visit with my ob before baby j was born we kind of went over some of the reasons behind depression... new baby, moving, moving to a new state, school change, job change, divorce... brad and i joked that well, except for that last one, we could pretty much check the whole list off... and then we learned of several dear friends and their own divorces or separations in process... so BAM.

So now i have this song in my head... and i think i'll close with that. Hello all!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBZ8ulc5NTg